(This is an old post that I never published, as I forgot)
So I finally have a job now. 6 months of nothing and now I have a job that I can at least start to build some funds up with. Not sure whats going to happen in 2-3 months, but I guess I will wait until that comes to worry about it.
Life kinda sucks right now. Lots of old and new things coming and going. Confusion and anger are very common for me now. Well, they have been anyways. I’m doing a lot better now. I can sleep generally okay, I’m eating again and I haven’t cried in a while. I hate how that last one sounds. Crying feels so humiliating to me. My job is going very well, lots of exercise and a nice atmosphere. My money has finally stopped diminishing. Now I just have to stop spending so much (mainly on food). I’ve been baking like crazy since I got to Athabasca. I figured out that it clears my head better than anything else I do. When I bake, I can think of nothing else but what I’m baking/cooking/steaming. It’s a very nice release. Most of the stuff I have made has turned out really well too. I’ve already done, fudge twice, Pumpkin Flan twice, pretzels once, cheezy garlic tea biscuits once, blondie brownies and banana bread once. Tonight I think I will make up some special Rice pudding (special because I will put raisens in it, which I normally do not do… gasp!).
More on the good side I am getting to see a friend I haven’t seen for a while, more often. She comes up and we play Halo: ODST and bake and go to the mall or drink coffee by the river and other things of the like. She has been pretty good about my situation too (having just broken up with someone). We are just friends right now (despite our past history). Neither of us know what we are doing either (I could be in Austrialia in 3 months, or some where equally far) and getting back together and then having the original reason we broke up causing us to break up again would seem kind of… silly.
